New revelation: I love dark chocolate. There is something awesome about it... sinful. When I eat it, I feel as though I'm doing something wrong, but right at the same time. It's a great feeling.

I was reading Naomi's blog the other day (which is incredible, by the way), and as I read her reflection on what she'll miss in Japan, it got me thinking...

What am I going to miss? Will I miss anything?

Absolutely.

I'm going to miss jumping on the bus, and the trains and being able to go everywhere and anywhere I want. I'm going to miss Tower Records shopping sprees, and now, more recently, GAP shopping sprees with Jesse. I'll miss getting lost in Inokashira Koen, and sipping coffee at Starbucks.

In a way, I'm going to miss this year...

This year, I've realized that the more I sit back and relax...watching things, listening to people, not focusing at school... I've had the best, most relaxing year I've ever had. My grades are not bad. Sure, I've stayed up late finishing homework, but those nights quickly redeem themselves as at look at the bigger picture.

I'm going to miss taking tests in the afternoon with Ms. Pettit, and listening to Icelandic ambient music. I'm going to miss swearing with Naomi about all the work that we have to do at 3:00 in the morning.

I'm going to miss...a lot.

A Poem for a Friend

It was within the dark blanket of night

Where I lay my thoughts,

Unfathomable like needles driven deep inside.

Inside the blackness of despair,

The closed eyes blocking thoughts of passion

From breaking through like hideous light.

What were these thoughts,

So plaguing like a shade’s song coursing its way

Through the darkness of my mind?

The rhythmic bliss of contact

Melding two into one form too early

Bringing forth an eternal spot.

These tears I cry for you dear child,

These tears staining clothes, face, and soul.

Let Vestal’s purity once again touch your heart,

Your body, your soul, awaking

True form, God’s original masterpiece,

Blameless, clean, and mild.

Feeling Eternal Sunhine of a Spotless Mind

How happy is the blameless vestal's lot!
The world forgetting, by the world forgot.
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!
Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd;
Labour and rest, that equal periods keep;
"Obedient slumbers that can wake and weep;
"Desires compos'd, affections ever ev'n,
Tears that delight, and sighs that waft to Heav'n.
Grace shines around her with serenest beams,
And whisp'ring angels prompt her golden dreams.
For her th' unfading rose of Eden blooms,
And wings of seraphs shed divine perfumes,
For her the Spouse prepares the bridal ring,
For her white virgins hymeneals sing,
To sounds of heav'nly harps she dies away,
And melts in visions of eternal day.

- Alexander Pope (From "Eloisa to Abelard")

A Ritual To Read To Each Other...

This poem is truly beautiful...

If you don't know the kind of person I am
and I don't know the kind of person you are
a pattern that others made may prevail in the world
and following the wrong god home we may miss our star.

For there is many a small betrayal in the mind,
a shrug that lets the fragile sequence break
sending with shouts the horrible errors of childhood
storming out to play through the broken dyke.

And as elephants parade holding each elephant's tail,
but if one wanders the circus won't find the park,
I call it cruel and maybe the root of all cruelty
to know what occurs but not recognize the fact.

And so I appeal to a voice, to something shadowy,
a remote important region in all who talk:
though we could fool each other, we should consider—
lest the parade of our mutual life get lost in the dark.

For it is important that awake people be awake,
or a breaking line may discourage them back to sleep;
the signals we give—yes or no, or maybe—
should be clear: the darkness around us is deep.

—William Stafford